just bought myself a new pair of shades.
from now on i shall view e world with tinted vision.
e world isn't as colourful as it seems to be.
it never has been.

just came back from little nicholas' house. little boys just have the shortest attention span ever. and as patient as i always am (though it was wearing very thin then), i merely told him to keep still and to concentrate in a firm tone and by bribing him that i wont buy him sweets if he continues being such a naughty boy. his uncle saw that he was misbehaving and pulled his ear till it was red! ouch! to me, violence or inflicting pain just aint right. but i guess boys need to be disciplined at a young age or else they'll cultivate to become little bastards. rotten harvests. i felt e pain in my heart when nicky tried so hard not to cry in front of me when tears were already brimming in his eyes. quite a male ego for a 6yr old boy yeah. i cant help it but have e softest spots for little boys. nicky took me by surprise when he told me that e reason why he was misbehaving was because he was jealous of his little sister beatrice. nicky says :"beatrice also very naughty but nobody scold her.but i get scolded." my heart melted there and then. i told him that i know he's a good boy and that i'll still buy him his sweets and after that, he was such a angel and behaved so well. forecast: his smile is bound to melt many hearts in e near future as an ACBarker boy. oh yes. and he deliberately took an extremely long time to finish his final questions cos he didn't want me to leave. he told me that he's happy when i'm ard. what a sweetie rite?

i gush at little boys. at how adorable, how innocent they are. cos we all know for sure that eventually, they'll lose that immaculate innocence and turn into heart-crushing monsters. prince charmings only appear in disney's fake fantasies and surreal tales. a bunch of bullshit which i had once fancied.