i'm in the lousiest moods these days. perpetual pmsing.

bitchy. bad-humored.bearish. bitchy. cantankerous. choleric. crabby. cross. crotchety. cussed. disagreeable. grouchy. grumpy. hot-tempered. ill-humored. irascible. mean. ornery. perverse. quick-tempered. ratty. snappish. tetchy. vinegary. whiny. sulky.
grrrr.

"...i'll fix these broken things
repair your broken wings
and make sure everything's alright
my pressure on your hips
sinking my fingertips
into every inch of you
cause i know that's what you want me to do.

this love has taken its toll on me..."
this love- maroon5

i just wanna scream and shout.
and bark in your ears.
bite anything or anyone that steps on my tail.
poor little nicholas was victimised though.
that poor little darling cried when i scolded him during tuition last wednesday. but he really was getting on my nerves with his hyperactivity.
oh well.
i like making boys cry.

i'm eating your insides
drowning in your thirst
feasting on your hunger
toying with your needs.

i sense your craving.
you shouldn't have allowed me to.

sometimes I like to get away from this maddening shroud
sometimes I love, you know, it's all insane
maybe it's time for me to pack it in
maybe it's time for me to track it in
maybe it's time for me to throw

sometimes I like to get away from the saddening crowd
sometimes I feel my life is all in vain
maybe it's time for me to pack it in
maybe it's time for me to track it in
maybe it's time for me to throw

i've got a good mind to throw it all away

after all, what is it worth?

seven sins of wantonness and
everything that's good is gone
sell it all for glory from the peers
silicone priestess scratch the back and
twists the knife to bone
kick against the pricks and scrape the shins

i'm the enemy in the enemies now

swallowed the pill
drank to the fill
all these things I carry now
in this bittersweet, in this bittersweet now

try to hold the world there sinking,
swimming in a paper cup
try to own the one beneath the skin
held up to the flame 'till singeing
skin begins to draw and tuck
never told there's a chance to win

what couldn't be, wouldn't be now

hold your hands up to the sky and try
so hard to rise above
but everything is beating down

bittersweet-fuel

must i fall sick every wednesday? damn. hate e cold weather. sniffsniff.
wrap me up in your embrace
and keep me warm.
hold me tight
so i can feel your heartbeat
next to mine
i want to breathe you
feel you.

been so busy e past week that i hardly have time to breathe.
suffocation.
gasp.
revive me?

sat nite: had a lovely dinner at pasta fresca at east coast with lily rose fad yazif and melvin.
e ambience of e open restaurant took my breath away. was so stuffed with e mamamia italian yumma that i could hardly breathe. another episode of e bulging tummy.

mon: little nicholas has been having nightmares lately. poor boy. instead of being greeted by his contagious charming lil smile, he had a saddest look on his face that once again melted me. ladies, you shd see it for yourselves too and you'll awww in agreement. he was on e brink of tears when i asked him what was wrong. he seemed so troubled by e monsters and ghosts he's been seeing and running away from in his zzz. poor little boy boy. googoogaagaa. anyway i told him to think of happy thoughts before he goes to zzz every nite. shall buy him his favourite candy later on. i wanna see his toothy grin once more. as naughty as he may be, i want to see him happy and to hear his silly laughter that delights me with much glee.
oh yes. had my first kickboxing session on mon as well and my oh my, it was indeed a workout.
i was flushed.
i was high.
i was kicking ass.
i was powerful.
step on my tail,
and i'll not only bite you, i'll make you weak in your knees.
you've been warned.
i love violence.
wahey.

had a great bonding session with cillia yesterday.
no bondage involved.
i'm so fortunate to have a friend understanding my circumstances so well.
love you girl.
you stink.

i want to push you ard.
i want to take you for granted.
i will.

exhausted.
and unwell.
not in e best of moods right now.
grrr.
step on my tail and i'll bite you.
grrr.

fri nite: had drinks at alley bar with my 2 beloveds. damn my sore eyes. stella artois tasted great as usual. would have tasted better if my tongue wasn't numbed by exhaustion.
am i making sense?
sat nite: had dinner at clarke quay.
vanessa, if you're seeing this, thanks once again for e lovely dinner.
check out my buldging tummy!
i'm disgusted.
extreme ewww.
don't make me start rambling of my new found knowledge
that my body composition consists of 28% fats.
aaargh!
sun nite: was rushing thru marketing report with 2 of my project mates at my void deck, when we realised it was due on friday instead of e next day. silly boys.
mon and tues: forgot what i did.

my dreams are getting weirder by e day.
so vivid.
spooked.