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Monday, December 20
Wednesday, December 15
i don't know.
i don't know you.
i don't know who you are.
i don't know who you are to me.
i don't know who i am to you.
i don't know what you want.
i don't know what you want from me.
i don't know what you want me to be.
i don't know where to begin.
i don't know where to halt.
i don't know where we shd go frm here.
i don't know where we'll end up.
i don't know much.
but i know enough to not know much.
i'm thirsty and hungry.
i'm starving and dehydrated.
and i just fell down and grazed my knee.
my clinique happy smells gd.
i smell gd.
come forth and take a sniff?
prove me wrong and tell me i stink.
i don't know you.
i don't know who you are.
i don't know who you are to me.
i don't know who i am to you.
i don't know what you want.
i don't know what you want from me.
i don't know what you want me to be.
i don't know where to begin.
i don't know where to halt.
i don't know where we shd go frm here.
i don't know where we'll end up.
i don't know much.
but i know enough to not know much.
i'm thirsty and hungry.
i'm starving and dehydrated.
and i just fell down and grazed my knee.
my clinique happy smells gd.
i smell gd.
come forth and take a sniff?
prove me wrong and tell me i stink.
Friday, December 10
attention!
to all who possess my mobile munber,pls msg me your numbers again cos i've lost all my contacts due to e loss of my phone at zoukout/loss of my sim card as well/loss of king's samsung actually/lost not cos i misplaced it but cos some fuckedupbitch pickpocketed it right out frm my pocket(!!!)/demise of my nokia on e same mother-of-all-jinxed night/due to e seabreeze at tanjong beach which corroded e phone due to e atmospheric presence of water/just got a sim card replacement/just got my sexy 7200/contactable again after being phoneless for 5 days.
appreciations aplenty.
yesterday was a day where humiliation and dramatism were photogenic.i so love it when words makes so much sense that it makes no sense at all.
i've been such a selfish bitch that you've have been totally neglected.
and i'm gonna change for e better.for you.for you to be happy.for you to be happy with me.
to all who possess my mobile munber,pls msg me your numbers again cos i've lost all my contacts due to e loss of my phone at zoukout/loss of my sim card as well/loss of king's samsung actually/lost not cos i misplaced it but cos some fuckedupbitch pickpocketed it right out frm my pocket(!!!)/demise of my nokia on e same mother-of-all-jinxed night/due to e seabreeze at tanjong beach which corroded e phone due to e atmospheric presence of water/just got a sim card replacement/just got my sexy 7200/contactable again after being phoneless for 5 days.
appreciations aplenty.
yesterday was a day where humiliation and dramatism were photogenic.i so love it when words makes so much sense that it makes no sense at all.
i've been such a selfish bitch that you've have been totally neglected.
and i'm gonna change for e better.for you.for you to be happy.for you to be happy with me.
Wednesday, December 8
zoukout-e virgin experience.
*pictures
paul van dyk!e way he holds e earphones to his ears n stimulating e crowd with his fingers-*sizzle.what a turn-on.his fingers are such wonders.
he was e only highlight of my night.
how i embrace trance now.
e virgin experience came with e loss.
which led to my hysterical and,yesyes i admit,overlyreacted outbursts into wails n whimpers.
to all who had to put up with me,sorry for being a spoiler.
other than that, e virgin experience was good.
drinking at alleybar-whence alvi returned.
*pictures
appalled.alley bar has since implemented an age limit.
but i still love e ambience of e place when it isnt crowded.
e frozen lychee margarita is yums.e lychee is still my favorite part of e drink though.
i selfcomposed a punkrock song in my dream last nite.which i have to admit was quite a headbanger.i've forgotten how e tune goes.but it's by an allguy band called "killed left lip".and the last line of e chorus went like this.."i'm smart only with my penis on.."
i wanna be a drummerchick.
*pictures
paul van dyk!e way he holds e earphones to his ears n stimulating e crowd with his fingers-*sizzle.what a turn-on.his fingers are such wonders.
he was e only highlight of my night.
how i embrace trance now.
e virgin experience came with e loss.
which led to my hysterical and,yesyes i admit,overlyreacted outbursts into wails n whimpers.
to all who had to put up with me,sorry for being a spoiler.
other than that, e virgin experience was good.
drinking at alleybar-whence alvi returned.
*pictures
appalled.alley bar has since implemented an age limit.
but i still love e ambience of e place when it isnt crowded.
e frozen lychee margarita is yums.e lychee is still my favorite part of e drink though.
i selfcomposed a punkrock song in my dream last nite.which i have to admit was quite a headbanger.i've forgotten how e tune goes.but it's by an allguy band called "killed left lip".and the last line of e chorus went like this.."i'm smart only with my penis on.."
i wanna be a drummerchick.
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