welcome back alvina! i cant wait to see ya later. :)

i missed e premiere of bachelor3 last nite. darn. really wanted to witness how catty those women were. managed to catch e last 2 mins of it on tv mobile and surprise surprise, several of those single women have those slanted sluttt eyes which i think are absolutely grosteque. bitches. grrrr.
and sobs, am gonna miss the final episode of my fave 9oclock drama today. e appeal of e show lies in e debauched portrayal of relationships. e misdemeanors of wrongdoings. all in e name of love.
what's love?
it's equivalent to lies, deceits and degradation of moralities. it pushes you to e brink of insanity. at e edge of losing your mind. with one feet dangling off the limits. you plunge. into the dungeons below. it's deep. you'll drown. you scream for help. but he walks away, ignoring your desperate calls of help. you sink to e bottom and never surface. you may revive. but you're never e same.
i'm not e same.

oh yes as i was saying, darn once e show ends, what are our nightly conversations gonna be based on, elaine? no more practical criticisms on each and every minute ominous and foreboding details which we proudly highlight and which e director had overlooked. oh well. we can write our own scripts. cos we're in e midst of our respective dramas.

your cordial invitation,
of wanting to spend time with me.
i wish i cld refuse you.
i think i will reject you.
though it's too hard for me to resist.

temptations may overwhelm.
what's lost in e moment
mite be carried away.
i don't want to see you.
i do.

stop me.