for it was a mere fixation with fiction
a showcase of my nowherenear perfect prose
e illusory identity illustrated was readily accepted.
names were never mentioned to begin with
roles narrated were so broadspectrumed, almost anyone can relate to them
but i guess it just struck one really hard.
and e ludicrous rejoinder stirred probably stems frm e guilt,
thus e intense defense mechanism.
yawn.
e sham is such a shame.


review of e bachelor last night:
i personally feel that e way trish behaves e way that she does, is moulded by e circumstances she's been facing with all her life. she commented that she cld never get along well with other females and cant stand their cattiness and only enjoys e company of men. especially physical intimacy frm men. regardless of marital status. perhaps by being so sexually giving and mastering e perfection in skills and giving men e absolute pleasure that e dirtiest porn cant even fulfil, that's probably e only time her presence is enjoyed and appreciated. i detect her desperation for acceptance. and since she claims she's good with what she can give, i suppose thats e only lasting power she possesses.
that, truly is sad.


i'm really fortunate to have a few good ones who're so close to my soul. being with me thru e roughest tides. resuscitating me when i've drowned. rescuing me when i'd rather suffocate. sticking by me through my periods of ugliness in moods. making me a better person thru their tenderlovings. frankly, i do feel at times that i do not deserve any at all. that maybe, i'm better off alone. i have remorse in not being able to show appreciations for my blessings. for i'm an epitome of all-talk no-action. just like a typical bastard. but i'm working on improving to be a better person, reciprocrating e affections that i've been receiving.
i dont want to end up as an ingrate with diminishing caregivers.
just like how one's been ditched.


advice: if ever you wish to bitch abt anyone at all, pls take great precautions in making sure that e word doesnt get ard to e subjectmatter eventually. be a vigilant rumormonger. such is e essence of being a successful businessperson. it's all abt e right amts of applications.