you called yesterday
to basically say
that you care for me, but
that you're just not in love.
immediately, i pretended to be
feeling similarly
and led you to believe i was ok
to just walk away from e one thing
that's unyielding and sacred to me.


well i guess i'm trying to be
nonchalant abt it.
and i'm going to extremes
to prove i'm fine without you.
but in reality
i'm slowly losing my mind
underneath e guise of a smile
gradually i'm dying inside.
friends ask me how i feel
and i lie convincingly
cos i don't want to reveal
e fact that i'm suffering.
so i wear my disguise
till i go home at night
and turn down all the lights
and then i breakdown and cry.


e end.