if shame had a face i thk it would kinda look like mine.
if it had a home would it be my eyes?
you're right.we're happier this way.
you please.and tease in ways so decadent.
decency never thrilled me much to begin with.
i dont expect.and receive pleasant surprises.
i'm on my best behaviour.luring you to perdition.
i'm aware.and await for e perfect timing for me to prey.
and to be able to seek enjoyment in more ways than one,
ooh what fun.
jubilance.
i need to be satisfied.e hunger in me keeps escalating.
e thirst drowns me n makes me crave for more.


one shopping spree is never enough.

when summer falls asleep
and winter plucks your strings
e colder that you get
makes you yearn for neglect
build it up, tear it up, throw it out
if i come round there now
wld you be pleased to see me
i wldn't make much noise
just whimper to myself
my head hurts more each time
e drinking strangles me
and these are e days without paracetemol.


e health hasnt been good these days.

i think e face is blacker than e shirt.



new postergirls for black polotees n diesel watches.




i love e leng this much!



loves of my life.


e above>> pics of tuesday's unsuccessful tanning session.


wednesday:eve of deepavali
which is equivalent to e whole of spore gathering at zouk.
maddening crowd!
all e sweatstained attempting to squeeze into e queues that were extended to e hotel so didnt suit e mood i had for e nite.
so headed to liquidroom.music was good but not for my mood.headed to lempicka at ms n that place was gorgeous.ever since i saw it being featured on hi-life,i always wanted to check that place out.lovely.and e music was superb as well.played e stupid drinking game of fivetens n lost miserably.no more sitting next to max cos his victorious achievement for e nite was to make me lose n drink.booze cures.and being boozed=lack of restraint n insanity.which was enjoyable.i like.always a first time for everything.


thursday:'e forgotten'
caught e show with johann whom i havent seen in ages.let me be a spolier n announce that my jaw is still intact.e show was not at all a jawdropper as it had promised.ending was blahlyblase.including aliens into e plot=not a gd idea.(i love being a spoiler.)cultivating e habit of reading too deeply in btw e lines,just as what i had done for 'e door in e floor' ,led me to ignore e smacked-in-e-face directly obvious.cant wait to catch 'birth'.looks damn interesting.
well of cos though i hadnt seen them for long, catching up with johann n with cillia later in e nite was a sooth to e soul.merely picked things off frm where we'd left them.no awkward discomfort of silences or strange vibes.love is all ard.


just now:trying to find something nice to buy but bought nothing.
yums.had yummy oreocheesecake with my dosage of caffeine at coffeeclub with max.followed by ice-cream.endorpins rejoice!now i know rum n raisin n durian do not complement each other at all esp when e rum is so strong.retail therapy isnt at all therapeutic if there's nothing for me to buy.just felt like getting a new piece of garment or decorative blingbling for e next clubbing session on wed.


i need to revamp e wardrobe.
i need to cross e borders n shop across e causeway.
rite now i just need to nurse e sore eye caused by e infected contact lens.


end of broadcast.

nothing's fine
i'm torn
i'm all out of faith
this is how i feel
i'm cold and i am shamed
lying naked on e floor
illusion never changed
into something real
i'm wide awake
and i can see
e perfect sky is torn
you're a little late
i'm already torn