amazing race last nite was intensely exhilerating!but it aint tt fun anymore cos my amazing race 'partner' isnt ard with me to lay bets n to discuss e game politics with.and of cos,hopping on e imaginary carpet at whichever destination n imagining e host whose-name-i-forgot saying, "shane n june.you're e first team to arrive".amazing race aint e same anymore.sigh.*missmiss.

newest obsession:e obsene amt of weight tt i've been putting on.
and physical perfection.
superficialities satisfies.
my fatboy poked e tummy of mine n said:'darling you really did put on weight.'
yeah uh.thats what i get for being with a plus sized darling who feeds me tons!and i always look small n petitey next to him.i'll never really know how much weight i've put on till e tummy pops.

i've cut my 1mth-short-of-a-yr-long hair already.sorry to cillia,elaine n elise whom i've sorta arranged to go cut hair with.but i just couldnt stand e hair anymore and i just had to snip it all off!well not all but most of it.e long hair is gone.gone.GONE.GONE!it's a totally different look altogther n i'm trying really hard to get used to e monster-with-shorthair-and-shortfringe in e mirror.e new 'do aint tt bad.it's different.i look different.i kinda miss e long hair now.e steamingly sexy,just-outta-e-bed look.damnation.it's a love/hate relationship with e hair.e only joy i derive frm haircuts are e head n neck massages i get frm e shampooers.today i had a shampoo boy.and i can say he's pretty good with his hands.*hiakhiakhiak.

new haircut.new beginning.begin what?what's to end?
it's been 2yrs since that.

fuck it.
e DIY dye job turned out damn fucking bad.
fuck.