zoukout-e virgin experience.
*pictures
paul van dyk!e way he holds e earphones to his ears n stimulating e crowd with his fingers-*sizzle.what a turn-on.his fingers are such wonders.
he was e only highlight of my night.
how i embrace trance now.
e virgin experience came with e loss.
which led to my hysterical and,yesyes i admit,overlyreacted outbursts into wails n whimpers.
to all who had to put up with me,sorry for being a spoiler.
other than that, e virgin experience was good.
drinking at alleybar-whence alvi returned.
*pictures
appalled.alley bar has since implemented an age limit.
but i still love e ambience of e place when it isnt crowded.
e frozen lychee margarita is yums.e lychee is still my favorite part of e drink though.
i selfcomposed a punkrock song in my dream last nite.which i have to admit was quite a headbanger.i've forgotten how e tune goes.but it's by an allguy band called "killed left lip".and the last line of e chorus went like this.."i'm smart only with my penis on.."
i wanna be a drummerchick.
Friday, November 26
if shame had a face i thk it would kinda look like mine.
if it had a home would it be my eyes?
you're right.we're happier this way.
you please.and tease in ways so decadent.
decency never thrilled me much to begin with.
i dont expect.and receive pleasant surprises.
i'm on my best behaviour.luring you to perdition.
i'm aware.and await for e perfect timing for me to prey.
and to be able to seek enjoyment in more ways than one,
ooh what fun.
jubilance.
i need to be satisfied.e hunger in me keeps escalating.
e thirst drowns me n makes me crave for more.
one shopping spree is never enough.
if it had a home would it be my eyes?
you're right.we're happier this way.
you please.and tease in ways so decadent.
decency never thrilled me much to begin with.
i dont expect.and receive pleasant surprises.
i'm on my best behaviour.luring you to perdition.
i'm aware.and await for e perfect timing for me to prey.
and to be able to seek enjoyment in more ways than one,
ooh what fun.
jubilance.
i need to be satisfied.e hunger in me keeps escalating.
e thirst drowns me n makes me crave for more.
one shopping spree is never enough.
Saturday, November 20
when summer falls asleep
and winter plucks your strings
e colder that you get
makes you yearn for neglect
build it up, tear it up, throw it out
if i come round there now
wld you be pleased to see me
i wldn't make much noise
just whimper to myself
my head hurts more each time
e drinking strangles me
and these are e days without paracetemol.
e health hasnt been good these days.
and winter plucks your strings
e colder that you get
makes you yearn for neglect
build it up, tear it up, throw it out
if i come round there now
wld you be pleased to see me
i wldn't make much noise
just whimper to myself
my head hurts more each time
e drinking strangles me
and these are e days without paracetemol.
e health hasnt been good these days.
Friday, November 12
i think e face is blacker than e shirt.
new postergirls for black polotees n diesel watches.
i love e leng this much!
loves of my life.
e above>> pics of tuesday's unsuccessful tanning session.
wednesday:eve of deepavali
which is equivalent to e whole of spore gathering at zouk.
maddening crowd!
all e sweatstained attempting to squeeze into e queues that were extended to e hotel so didnt suit e mood i had for e nite.
so headed to liquidroom.music was good but not for my mood.headed to lempicka at ms n that place was gorgeous.ever since i saw it being featured on hi-life,i always wanted to check that place out.lovely.and e music was superb as well.played e stupid drinking game of fivetens n lost miserably.no more sitting next to max cos his victorious achievement for e nite was to make me lose n drink.booze cures.and being boozed=lack of restraint n insanity.which was enjoyable.i like.always a first time for everything.
thursday:'e forgotten'
caught e show with johann whom i havent seen in ages.let me be a spolier n announce that my jaw is still intact.e show was not at all a jawdropper as it had promised.ending was blahlyblase.including aliens into e plot=not a gd idea.(i love being a spoiler.)cultivating e habit of reading too deeply in btw e lines,just as what i had done for 'e door in e floor' ,led me to ignore e smacked-in-e-face directly obvious.cant wait to catch 'birth'.looks damn interesting.
well of cos though i hadnt seen them for long, catching up with johann n with cillia later in e nite was a sooth to e soul.merely picked things off frm where we'd left them.no awkward discomfort of silences or strange vibes.love is all ard.
just now:trying to find something nice to buy but bought nothing.
yums.had yummy oreocheesecake with my dosage of caffeine at coffeeclub with max.followed by ice-cream.endorpins rejoice!now i know rum n raisin n durian do not complement each other at all esp when e rum is so strong.retail therapy isnt at all therapeutic if there's nothing for me to buy.just felt like getting a new piece of garment or decorative blingbling for e next clubbing session on wed.
i need to revamp e wardrobe.
i need to cross e borders n shop across e causeway.
rite now i just need to nurse e sore eye caused by e infected contact lens.
end of broadcast.
Monday, November 8
Saturday, October 30
wednesday's mambo session
before downing down shots of sexonthebeach and gulps of apricot brandy and alot of what nots:
vanniebaby and i in a preciousmoments-ish pose
my favorite ahlian and i being poseur
after downing down shots of sexonthebeach and gulps of apricot brandy and alot of what nots:
us with max.all dizzied up with tipsiness.
intense intoxication of liquer at zouk.
and ooh hardcore house at liquidroom afterwards.
been surrounded by too much trance and house these few days that i cldnt ctrl e tapping of my feet to e tiutiutiu music.
but only feet tapping.no other bodily movements produced cos e body cldnt coordination to e apparent rhythm n beat of e monotonous n repetitive tiutiutiu.
oh well..it really wasnt that bad though it wasnt e preferred source of audiopleasure.
being in e company of my pamperedpassions leng n van(iloveyou!) made e nite ohsolovely n definitely much talked abt.
that's all for updates.
before downing down shots of sexonthebeach and gulps of apricot brandy and alot of what nots:
vanniebaby and i in a preciousmoments-ish pose
my favorite ahlian and i being poseur
after downing down shots of sexonthebeach and gulps of apricot brandy and alot of what nots:
us with max.all dizzied up with tipsiness.
intense intoxication of liquer at zouk.
and ooh hardcore house at liquidroom afterwards.
been surrounded by too much trance and house these few days that i cldnt ctrl e tapping of my feet to e tiutiutiu music.
but only feet tapping.no other bodily movements produced cos e body cldnt coordination to e apparent rhythm n beat of e monotonous n repetitive tiutiutiu.
oh well..it really wasnt that bad though it wasnt e preferred source of audiopleasure.
being in e company of my pamperedpassions leng n van(iloveyou!) made e nite ohsolovely n definitely much talked abt.
that's all for updates.
Sunday, October 24
Tuesday, October 19
tear smears.
rose tinted coverage
fakes e glow which no longer radiates.
lacklustre lips.
painted by mac lipglass
e sheen and shimmer
an attempt to draw attention away frm e pale prosaic pout.
sore.
surrounding e almondhue
stains e vision.
despite its promised powers of lash lengthening/intensifying
e mascara fails to conceal
e stolidly stale stare projected by e saline-stained oculus.
dolled up to deceive.
a loungeact at its peak of perfection.
applause pls?
sin-covered in security
sheer smothering.
i'll let you do e deed.
rose tinted coverage
fakes e glow which no longer radiates.
lacklustre lips.
painted by mac lipglass
e sheen and shimmer
an attempt to draw attention away frm e pale prosaic pout.
sore.
surrounding e almondhue
stains e vision.
despite its promised powers of lash lengthening/intensifying
e mascara fails to conceal
e stolidly stale stare projected by e saline-stained oculus.
dolled up to deceive.
a loungeact at its peak of perfection.
applause pls?
sin-covered in security
sheer smothering.
i'll let you do e deed.
Monday, October 11
you called yesterday
to basically say
that you care for me, but
that you're just not in love.
immediately, i pretended to be
feeling similarly
and led you to believe i was ok
to just walk away from e one thing
that's unyielding and sacred to me.
well i guess i'm trying to be
nonchalant abt it.
and i'm going to extremes
to prove i'm fine without you.
but in reality
i'm slowly losing my mind
underneath e guise of a smile
gradually i'm dying inside.
friends ask me how i feel
and i lie convincingly
cos i don't want to reveal
e fact that i'm suffering.
so i wear my disguise
till i go home at night
and turn down all the lights
and then i breakdown and cry.
e end.
to basically say
that you care for me, but
that you're just not in love.
immediately, i pretended to be
feeling similarly
and led you to believe i was ok
to just walk away from e one thing
that's unyielding and sacred to me.
well i guess i'm trying to be
nonchalant abt it.
and i'm going to extremes
to prove i'm fine without you.
but in reality
i'm slowly losing my mind
underneath e guise of a smile
gradually i'm dying inside.
friends ask me how i feel
and i lie convincingly
cos i don't want to reveal
e fact that i'm suffering.
so i wear my disguise
till i go home at night
and turn down all the lights
and then i breakdown and cry.
e end.
Saturday, October 9
flashbacktrack>>3yrs down memory lane.
one unbreezy evening, sillybaby and i decided to take a leisurely walk ard his estate after dinner. ooh yeah i'm so totally made for walking. i swear every singleinch of my body is celluliting so i rejoiced at e idea of toning and working thy calf muscles. so we walked e entire seletar estate- thru seletar hills/gardens/nim/mimosa/neram/other jalansomethings weirdsounding road names/and even came across to mr minister's hse. george yeo methinks. and there was an indian policeman sitting in his lil cove outside e hse. so poor thing la. e weather was unbearably unbearable. still n humid. only thing tt blew was nothing. sightings include wowing at suisui cars such as my alltime fave lexus(swoon...), SLKs, a supergorgeous nissanfairlady, porsches parked alongside beemers(7series to be precise) in e same hse(filthyfilthy rich cant freakin stand it!) and of cos nice big houses with gardens, whitepicketfences and doggies either running ard chasing their own tails or barking non stop by e gate (which reminds me of silly's stoopid dog who's jealous tt i have to share his owner with him and wants me dead i swear).
walkedwalked sweatsweat...
then came sad sighting..
tt seletar macs was demolished.
and all ard it. including e mkt, e oldish flats n e mamapapa shops which sell tidbits reminiscent of my childhood.
and tt evoked such a strong sadness within me.
it was where everything began;
was where my fave ppfrontman studied together for supps.
geog and econs to be exact.
underneath e posters of john lennon and e rest of his boys as decors.
was where when he told me tt my currentsqueeze wld be really blessed if he had me.
was where he told me tt he wldnt even introduce me to currentsqueeze(!elation!) if he didnt meet his thensqueeze who's suchabitch really.
was where i confided in ppfrontman tt i was doubting babytouringeurope's thenadvances.
tt were there mere honeycoated nothings or flavored somethings?
was where ppfrontman assured me tt my nowandthenbaby was serious abt me.
was where mybaby and i first held hands discreetly.
underneath e tables. without ppfrontman's knowledge.
was where mybelovedyingying pronounced n-i-n-e as neeneh instead of nine.
was where e four of us laughed at e stupidest things over happymeals.
such happy meals.
was where sillybaby n i studied n sneaked peeks at each other during our periods of greyish ambiguities.
as i'd refused to go to his place, knowing i'd breakaway frm my limitations.
was where sillybaby's mom n i bought 25 25cents ice-cream cones.
aha vanilla delights.
and e mkt was where we bought breakfast/lunch/dinner for his parents.
and seeing him chitchat with e hawkers cos they've practically seen him grow up.
which i bet was an attempt to get more ingredients and was a successful one.
so these significant landmarks are now nothing but empty landscapes.
prolly gonna build up some mightymall there.
which wld further escalate e prices of land n private estates in tt area.
so it is a goodbye to former serenity.
defunct.
but deeplymissed.
one unbreezy evening, sillybaby and i decided to take a leisurely walk ard his estate after dinner. ooh yeah i'm so totally made for walking. i swear every singleinch of my body is celluliting so i rejoiced at e idea of toning and working thy calf muscles. so we walked e entire seletar estate- thru seletar hills/gardens/nim/mimosa/neram/other jalansomethings weirdsounding road names/and even came across to mr minister's hse. george yeo methinks. and there was an indian policeman sitting in his lil cove outside e hse. so poor thing la. e weather was unbearably unbearable. still n humid. only thing tt blew was nothing. sightings include wowing at suisui cars such as my alltime fave lexus(swoon...), SLKs, a supergorgeous nissanfairlady, porsches parked alongside beemers(7series to be precise) in e same hse(filthyfilthy rich cant freakin stand it!) and of cos nice big houses with gardens, whitepicketfences and doggies either running ard chasing their own tails or barking non stop by e gate (which reminds me of silly's stoopid dog who's jealous tt i have to share his owner with him and wants me dead i swear).
walkedwalked sweatsweat...
then came sad sighting..
tt seletar macs was demolished.
and all ard it. including e mkt, e oldish flats n e mamapapa shops which sell tidbits reminiscent of my childhood.
and tt evoked such a strong sadness within me.
it was where everything began;
was where my fave ppfrontman studied together for supps.
geog and econs to be exact.
underneath e posters of john lennon and e rest of his boys as decors.
was where when he told me tt my currentsqueeze wld be really blessed if he had me.
was where he told me tt he wldnt even introduce me to currentsqueeze(!elation!) if he didnt meet his thensqueeze who's suchabitch really.
was where i confided in ppfrontman tt i was doubting babytouringeurope's thenadvances.
tt were there mere honeycoated nothings or flavored somethings?
was where ppfrontman assured me tt my nowandthenbaby was serious abt me.
was where mybaby and i first held hands discreetly.
underneath e tables. without ppfrontman's knowledge.
was where mybelovedyingying pronounced n-i-n-e as neeneh instead of nine.
was where e four of us laughed at e stupidest things over happymeals.
such happy meals.
was where sillybaby n i studied n sneaked peeks at each other during our periods of greyish ambiguities.
as i'd refused to go to his place, knowing i'd breakaway frm my limitations.
was where sillybaby's mom n i bought 25 25cents ice-cream cones.
aha vanilla delights.
and e mkt was where we bought breakfast/lunch/dinner for his parents.
and seeing him chitchat with e hawkers cos they've practically seen him grow up.
which i bet was an attempt to get more ingredients and was a successful one.
so these significant landmarks are now nothing but empty landscapes.
prolly gonna build up some mightymall there.
which wld further escalate e prices of land n private estates in tt area.
so it is a goodbye to former serenity.
defunct.
but deeplymissed.
Saturday, October 2
selfobessession at its peak.
loving oneself is e most vital immunity ammunition.
without this pride that you have in yourself,
wounds of weaknesses are exposed
allowing others to feast on your pain
and conquer e vulnerabilities.
till damage is beyond any salvation,
regrettting doesnt serve as an aid.
loving thy flawshortcomingsimperfectperfections.
loving thy strengthslongeivityperfectimperfections.
for saying that you care is nothing more than a shallow conceit
raise me up with falsetted acclaims
only to let me down in shame.
count on noone.
believe in none.
leng: iloveyou.
those tears that we've shed
werent meant for him for he does not deserve
e tears that ive shed n shared with you were out of heartache
leng: iloveyou.
those tears that we've shed
werent meant for him for he does not deserve
e tears that ive shed n shared with you were out of heartache
for it hurts me so much to see you cry
and angers me to know that i cant reduce your pain
always here for you
willing to do anything in n out of my power for you.
willing to do anything in n out of my power for you.
anything.
Monday, September 27
i've got strong bones.
calcium in e bones.no worries bout osteoporosis.
milk it.
last night my entire palm was slammed clammed by e car door and it's still intact.
joreen's impact.
best of all, e car door actually shut tight.
with my hand in between.
awesom-O.
no bleeding. no broken bones.
just a protruding vein n a swelling cushion on e palm,
which in accordance to e palmistry book, reflects wealth.
just reminds me of how my leg slipped in to e hole in between e train n e platform 4yrs back.
and how my primary concern at that pt of time was not losing grip of my brand new jinxed sandals.
and how my bruise was blackish blue and how i pride having to encounter such an accident which SMRT wld prolly bribe my mouth shut frm e media.
and my only response to both e pain was laughing uncontrollably.
perhaps e pain triggered me off into a strangely unexplainable laughing misfit.
come to think of it, 'twas really hilarioushaha.
pain pleasures me
calcium in e bones.no worries bout osteoporosis.
milk it.
last night my entire palm was slammed clammed by e car door and it's still intact.
joreen's impact.
best of all, e car door actually shut tight.
with my hand in between.
awesom-O.
no bleeding. no broken bones.
just a protruding vein n a swelling cushion on e palm,
which in accordance to e palmistry book, reflects wealth.
just reminds me of how my leg slipped in to e hole in between e train n e platform 4yrs back.
and how my primary concern at that pt of time was not losing grip of my brand new jinxed sandals.
and how my bruise was blackish blue and how i pride having to encounter such an accident which SMRT wld prolly bribe my mouth shut frm e media.
and my only response to both e pain was laughing uncontrollably.
perhaps e pain triggered me off into a strangely unexplainable laughing misfit.
come to think of it, 'twas really hilarioushaha.
pain pleasures me
Friday, September 24
more birthday shoutouts n screamins.
happy birthday to....
elaine (22/9)
to e one on e right,(what an awesom-O pic i must say)
yingying, my graffiti guru with meenared mannerisms. so very special to me.
so blessed to have you in my life.
appreciate all you've done for me.
thank you for not forsaking me thru e yrs.
lily(24/9)
oh gosh this is such an ancient picture but this is e only one that i can get hold of with us in it.
those were e days werent they?
i love you lily dear.
happy 'stewardessing'.
you know what i mean. *winks.
wen(24/9)
'grandson' of khong guan.
do brush up n learn more ah-du songs yeah. ktving isnt all that exciting if we were to bang our heads to sum41's fat lip all e time.
more sultana biscuits when you return?
will nv forget you offering me a hand when i slipped n fell at castle green's gents after sneaking in for a suana.
will try to forget you laughing so damn loud while offering your act of kindness.
so manymany september babies.
and of cos, all pics above were specially chosen cos i look good in them.
happy birthday to....
elaine (22/9)
to e one on e right,(what an awesom-O pic i must say)
yingying, my graffiti guru with meenared mannerisms. so very special to me.
so blessed to have you in my life.
appreciate all you've done for me.
thank you for not forsaking me thru e yrs.
lily(24/9)
oh gosh this is such an ancient picture but this is e only one that i can get hold of with us in it.
those were e days werent they?
i love you lily dear.
happy 'stewardessing'.
you know what i mean. *winks.
wen(24/9)
'grandson' of khong guan.
do brush up n learn more ah-du songs yeah. ktving isnt all that exciting if we were to bang our heads to sum41's fat lip all e time.
more sultana biscuits when you return?
will nv forget you offering me a hand when i slipped n fell at castle green's gents after sneaking in for a suana.
will try to forget you laughing so damn loud while offering your act of kindness.
so manymany september babies.
and of cos, all pics above were specially chosen cos i look good in them.
Saturday, September 11
Happy 19th Birthday my beloved Vanessa Cheryl Woo Shufen my baby waby.
i love you sweets and always will.
so glad that you enjoyed e surprise party that we had for you though you were pissed with me for a mo'.
anything at e expense of building up e ultimate climax for you.
willing to do aything for you baby.
still lovin' you even though you n leng spiked my soup with an extra dosage of tom yam paste.
still lovin' you even you didnt wear e party hat that leng n i made for you.
still lovin' you even though my birthday present which comes in e form of a white tube is still with you.
damn. if only we had time to play 'pin-e-tail-on-e-donkey' n drink our sparkling wine.
but nonetheless, e smile on your face made all efforts worth while.
many many many many many many many more birthday celebrations n surprise parties to come.
this i know for a fact.
i love you.
i love you sweets and always will.
so glad that you enjoyed e surprise party that we had for you though you were pissed with me for a mo'.
anything at e expense of building up e ultimate climax for you.
willing to do aything for you baby.
still lovin' you even though you n leng spiked my soup with an extra dosage of tom yam paste.
still lovin' you even you didnt wear e party hat that leng n i made for you.
still lovin' you even though my birthday present which comes in e form of a white tube is still with you.
damn. if only we had time to play 'pin-e-tail-on-e-donkey' n drink our sparkling wine.
but nonetheless, e smile on your face made all efforts worth while.
many many many many many many many more birthday celebrations n surprise parties to come.
this i know for a fact.
i love you.
Friday, September 10
please, for hell's sake, be original.
i've been itching to get this out of me
and today my displeasures abt you will erupt
and i'll spit it right on your face.
i may be sourpussing for awhile.
but you're a FAKE and you have to live with that for e rest of your downtrodden life.
i feel shameful of your existence really.
a little extractions, here n there, to emphasize your pt is fine with me.
but to e extend of adopting my lingo as your own,
imitating my habits, my behavior, my mannerism, my style
whatever that distincts me n makes me special,
sickens me to a great extend.
it's blatant that you're perpetually altering your persona to be someone you're not.
trying oh so hard to be impressive, impressionable, imperial but my dear, i can see thru your veneers.
underneath it all, you're still e blase person that you are and you cant possibly deny your nature.
try as you might.
you wont make it big as a somebody or someone worth remembering.
you are easily forgotten.
a person void of substance.
essence so bland, yawn, what did you say again?
pay a price for your pathetic plagiarism.
but you cant afford it so i shall just forget abt it.
i feel sorry for you.
sympathize you.
look down upon you.
you're getting on my fucking nerves
and thats it. it's e end.
i'm plucking you out of my system. for good. forever.
don't hear frm me any longer.
i've been itching to get this out of me
and today my displeasures abt you will erupt
and i'll spit it right on your face.
i may be sourpussing for awhile.
but you're a FAKE and you have to live with that for e rest of your downtrodden life.
i feel shameful of your existence really.
a little extractions, here n there, to emphasize your pt is fine with me.
but to e extend of adopting my lingo as your own,
imitating my habits, my behavior, my mannerism, my style
whatever that distincts me n makes me special,
sickens me to a great extend.
it's blatant that you're perpetually altering your persona to be someone you're not.
trying oh so hard to be impressive, impressionable, imperial but my dear, i can see thru your veneers.
underneath it all, you're still e blase person that you are and you cant possibly deny your nature.
try as you might.
you wont make it big as a somebody or someone worth remembering.
you are easily forgotten.
a person void of substance.
essence so bland, yawn, what did you say again?
pay a price for your pathetic plagiarism.
but you cant afford it so i shall just forget abt it.
i feel sorry for you.
sympathize you.
look down upon you.
you're getting on my fucking nerves
and thats it. it's e end.
i'm plucking you out of my system. for good. forever.
don't hear frm me any longer.
Friday, September 3
hot. e weather i mean.
upandcoming postergirl for sports unillustrated.
i love me babies!
leng looks like a dragon here.rrrrr.
tanning on tues.
pics kindly abstracted frm vannie baby's camera. which was happily hogged by me.
e sun was glorious as usual. my back's tanner than my front and so is van's. leng developed a weird rash after showering with my shokobutsu.
soaking up e sun was good. but soaking up e sun with my darlingest girls n lunching at our table no 155 at seah im hawker centre makes june e happiest girl ever.
wed nite. in e cab to zouk.
oooh yeah dancin' in september.
as compared to newsroombar last sat which was such a farfarfar cry, whereby e music and crowd were blech n boring, mamboing was great after a 3mth hiatus.
liquer flowed aplenty.
and it was especially joyous when i had an extra lychee in my lychee martini.
when hot n sticky was stickier than usual.
when e samoka shot inflammed e tongue.
when e company i was with dizzied me up with happiness.
drunk talkin is such a bad habit of mine.
sprouting nonsense which i cant otherwise take back.
but alas, e damage is already done.
and cant undo e disappointment which i've brought upon.
help! leng is singing hokkien songs n prancing ard as if she's in those scenic obiangdated music videos. help!
Saturday, August 28
new template.
sinfully savouring bloody cockles, and ooh, durian that arent that fleshy but nonetheless melts in my mouth.
suppering is a sin.
my 3yr old levis arent supposed to feel this tight!
soon e hipsters will be a size 27 waister.
one wk hols starting frm now.
*ecstasy.
sinking into delirium n falling into deep sleep.
plant a kiss on thy lips n i shalt wake.
cos thou art e reason thy hours are beautiful.
sinfully savouring bloody cockles, and ooh, durian that arent that fleshy but nonetheless melts in my mouth.
suppering is a sin.
my 3yr old levis arent supposed to feel this tight!
soon e hipsters will be a size 27 waister.
one wk hols starting frm now.
*ecstasy.
sinking into delirium n falling into deep sleep.
plant a kiss on thy lips n i shalt wake.
cos thou art e reason thy hours are beautiful.
Monday, August 23
my favoritest girls in e world!
when we laugh or we cry, it's together.
through e rain and e stormiest weather.
we're gonna still be as one
it's forever. .
i love my vannie n leng!
as my sillyboy has envisioned us to be thirty yrs down e road, we're still gonna be having regular bitching sessions and highteas, mahjong parties n shopping sprees. and as a result, e housework will be left undone, dinner wont be cooked, children running all over e place, totally neglecting our partners.
i can so see us growing old together.
and that's what we will do.
iloveyou.
you girls mean e world to me.
oh yes even if vannie makes me walk with her frm lau pa sat to esplanade.
and even if leng forces us to be cordial to her xiaobai.
i'm nothing without you.
*much love.
hopelessly addicted to nelly feat jaheim's-my place.
it's like so totally orgasmic.
i sink deep into e song.
and elevates me to an incredible high all e time.
lyrics so sleazy yet tune so smooth,
i melt, mesmerised.
really am melting.
weather's too hot, forcing me to strip bare to nothingness.
Monday, August 16
pictures taken over e weekend while slogging over e logistics project at huey's hse.
was triggerpleasing snapping pictures of meself.
kinda abstract dont you think?
selfobsession is indeed therapeutic.
go try.
thought of an awesome club name while writing notes for my marketing mgmt.
lvlounge.
pronounced as level lounge.
very winebar. jazz.ambient. lush sofaseats. deepred. sensous. cocktail. ontherocks. beautifulpeople. gucci. dior. upmarket. highend. gorgeous. socialise. socialite. me.
and e danceywancey club wld be called:
lure.
as in pure.
my sillyboy says he'll name his club e-house.
dang.sounds really inviting eh.
mel! remember how we used to talk abt setting up our own club during guides?and who wld be in charge of whichever department n e overall running of e club yadayada? such pleasant memoirs of those times in e den, our den as qm. i miss those times. innocence n purejoy.
vannie, leng! cant wait to meet up tmr! finally we can recommence our bitching sessions. mouth's itchin. hands're itchin to play mahjong too. and e heart's itchin to see you two. *mushywush.
till tmr.ta.
Tuesday, August 10
i can hardly wait to hold you
feel my arms ard you
how long i have waited
waited just to love you
now that i have found you..
i'll see you on thurs.:)
my heart is filled with so much joy, i can only glow with delight.
i desperately need a tan.
vannie,leng do you hear me?!lets go really soon k.lets frolick under e sun once n again n have skinonskin contact with e sands.exfoliate me baby! i feel like a tofu now really.in every sense of e word.white n jiggly n soyeah(soya..gedditgeddit?), grosse.
shopping at chinatown this noon was great!all thanks to my vannie who shared with me her cheap acquisition at cowcarwater.absolutely love my rattan bags man.cant wait to beautify them with my signature prettily fake flowers in every color of e rainbow.pwetty.
tsk.and to know that I(yes me,ME,ME) was e one who started this trend in sch way way back last yr.my style.MINE.
next up>>army market.
but arghhh how i wish i cld squeeze time out frm my unmoisturized but nonetheless smooth hands.
oh but wait..last day of work will be this coming sunday.soon i'll have tons of time for disposal.can finally get to spent good quality time with my sillybilly and all my lurbalurbas.it's a bittersweet departure really.e only peeves of it all were e loooooooooong hrs(10hrs.it's that long), e boredom, buying female, her world, 8days, elle every mth(!!!) to entertain meself, piling on weight snacking non stop in order to kill time.and bangbang i've shot up to 50kg.but other than that, working with clothes, dressing e mannequins up in e always-in-vogue-joon's-couture-style n tapping on my hidden fashionistic instincts were pleasantly pleasant.
next up>>prolly venturing into e cosmetic line soon.e power of strings pulling.e power of having power.i lust for power.i want it mine!
on a more sombre note altogether,
recently a friend of mine passed on.though i wasnt close to him in any way, his tragic death in a road accident really struck a chord in me.gone so sudden.didnt even get to say farewell to those who loved him n whom he loved.
i would like to bring this across: when i do pass on one fine day, i would like my eulogy to be such whereby all e countless silly, lame, funny/unfunny things i've said n done to be shared to one n all, to mark my closure.to know that i've touched each n everyone of you in any way, n that i've made you laugh n smile even for just once in my life, i depart with a smile on my face.love you all.i may not have deserved em, but i do cherish n appreciate em e best way i can.
loving you is easy cos you're beautiful.
yes, all of you.
feel my arms ard you
how long i have waited
waited just to love you
now that i have found you..
i'll see you on thurs.:)
my heart is filled with so much joy, i can only glow with delight.
i desperately need a tan.
vannie,leng do you hear me?!lets go really soon k.lets frolick under e sun once n again n have skinonskin contact with e sands.exfoliate me baby! i feel like a tofu now really.in every sense of e word.white n jiggly n soyeah(soya..gedditgeddit?), grosse.
shopping at chinatown this noon was great!all thanks to my vannie who shared with me her cheap acquisition at cowcarwater.absolutely love my rattan bags man.cant wait to beautify them with my signature prettily fake flowers in every color of e rainbow.pwetty.
tsk.and to know that I(yes me,ME,ME) was e one who started this trend in sch way way back last yr.my style.MINE.
next up>>army market.
but arghhh how i wish i cld squeeze time out frm my unmoisturized but nonetheless smooth hands.
oh but wait..last day of work will be this coming sunday.soon i'll have tons of time for disposal.can finally get to spent good quality time with my sillybilly and all my lurbalurbas.it's a bittersweet departure really.e only peeves of it all were e loooooooooong hrs(10hrs.it's that long), e boredom, buying female, her world, 8days, elle every mth(!!!) to entertain meself, piling on weight snacking non stop in order to kill time.and bangbang i've shot up to 50kg.but other than that, working with clothes, dressing e mannequins up in e always-in-vogue-joon's-couture-style n tapping on my hidden fashionistic instincts were pleasantly pleasant.
next up>>prolly venturing into e cosmetic line soon.e power of strings pulling.e power of having power.i lust for power.i want it mine!
on a more sombre note altogether,
recently a friend of mine passed on.though i wasnt close to him in any way, his tragic death in a road accident really struck a chord in me.gone so sudden.didnt even get to say farewell to those who loved him n whom he loved.
i would like to bring this across: when i do pass on one fine day, i would like my eulogy to be such whereby all e countless silly, lame, funny/unfunny things i've said n done to be shared to one n all, to mark my closure.to know that i've touched each n everyone of you in any way, n that i've made you laugh n smile even for just once in my life, i depart with a smile on my face.love you all.i may not have deserved em, but i do cherish n appreciate em e best way i can.
loving you is easy cos you're beautiful.
yes, all of you.
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